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May 06, 2003
Time - sequentially arranged pain.
I have to admit that it wasn't until I saw the three photo galleries of people at ETCON that I realised two things.
1) How jealous I am of them, and how cross I am that I'm no longer in a job where I would have been there.
2) How much time has passed since I first thought 'It won't matter I'll be employed by then and someone else can pay"
These people are my peers (even if I don't actually know some of them that well - at least not while sober) and while I'm happy to see what a great time they were having, I can't help but think
"It should have been me"
And I have to question not just whether/how far I've "fallen" but also the privelege that I was used to back at the BBC which makes me think of these conferences as a god-given right.
Posted by Tom Dolan at May 6, 2003 06:05 PM
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