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July 07, 2002
Alcoholic Bifurcation
I've got two modes when I'm drinking.
In one mode I'm extremely overexcitable - a conversational scattergun - taking random thoughts and flights of fancy with the people around me, getting passionate and involved in the issues at hand.
Or I just shut down completely. I'll sit there like a sponge, peoplewatching, and getting increasingly frustrated and depressed at the widening gulf between me and the people having fun around me. 'Join in, have fun!' my whole system is crying, but there's something crippling me - a lack of anything to say - that makes it impossible to do.
The second one happens at the parties I really want to, or it's important that I, enjoy.
i.e. last night.
After a week of being a life-and-soul, I'm fallen into a trough of depression, and I'm having huge problems getting out.
Part of it is the fact that we've got to start trudging around estate agents all over again, waiting for somewhere to become available. Another part of it is the tiredness, both emotional and physical as a result of the session here. And I think I just really really want to go home.
Posted by Tom Dolan at July 7, 2002 06:42 PM
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Fancy dinner at the Grizzly Bear tonight? Another quintessential Banff experience... might lift your spirits. Bison burger maybe?
Posted by: Rob Bevan at July 8, 2002 05:08 PM
A fabulous idea. C'est un date chaud.
Posted by: Tom at July 8, 2002 05:29 PM
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